Freshly back from rehearsal…

Can’t stand it

Those stupid mistakes

I think I’m not doing the orchestra ANY good

1 more week

I need a miracle

 

I dunno… Sigh…

 

It’s not as glamourous as what people might think…

When you see the solitary nights I cried in my room, or how I would go to the toilet during rehearsals just to cry and release the tension inside…

The mountain of doubts I have

The constant battles of conflicting thoughts

The temptations to give up

(yaya please stop self-pitying)

 

Thankfully no one has warned me of those, otherwise I might be totally turned off even before learning.

But now there’s no turning back…

God will not bring me to a place and leave me there to DIE right!!!

 

~~~

(An hour or so later…)

 

ARGH my printer is CRANKY…

I’ve actually attempted to FIX it (after procrastinating for months) it got better but now the CYAN cartridge is out of ink and I don’t understand why I can’t print my lecture notes with just BLACK ink???!!!

Is it like that for all printers?!?!

Is this some sick business technique to get people to buy coloured ink?!

Maybe it’s time to get a BOYFRIEND so he can help me fix stuff!!!

I don’t mind doing those but the problem is, it’s seldom successful!!!

Muahaha.

TSK.

 

Ok I’d better stop here, before I start sounding more bimbotic. Eww.